Interview

kinda in this weird dream state

i felt like i looked like i was on heroin, but of course i didn't feel* like i was on heroin

"did u go out on kolopins or just take at home?"

take at home

it's good if you take a huge swig of PM cough medicine and drink a few beers

i spent all last winter super depressed

so i stayed in and would get wasted

i'd wake up, eat an ambien

wake up early evening and start drinking

then eat a kpin

nap

wake up around 10

and drink a six pack

smoke a pack of cigs

and eat another ambien

i'm surprised i'm still alive

i lost one of my jobs

so i was only working two nights a week

making like 200-300 bux a week

ha

my friend used to come over and ask me if i wanted to share a bag of dope with her. i'd have to say no bc i knew one bump of that shit and i'd be hooked

i was so depressed my plan was to try and sleep the winter away

but i was living on a friends couch and she was a full time student and worked, so i had the place to myself

i remember she went to mexico for a month and the gas got turned off. no heat. it was crazy. i was living like a junkie

"how did u get yerself out of it?"

spring came

i walked outside and as soon as i felt the warmth i felt better

and i got bored of always being fucked up

and my friends helped me out of it

Taking drugs to make music to take drugs to

My roommate played spacemen 3 from the living room today which was the perfect soundtrack for me while i lay in bed all day getting up once in a while to puke.

I guess it's my official directorial debut

everything with you video and soon as i get paid it's time to get loaded, like really loaded!

Fully blown

Uptown and downtown with and old dear friend this weekend that when together we journey to the end of the night.

Trying to get better...

but then something triggers the demons and all I can do is run home and hide.

Friends like me

Hey happy birthday man, sorry I didn't get you a present...I had to pay my drug debts from last night.

Distortion

Keeps me calm while traveling in tunnels and divorces me from my surroundings.