Interview

kinda in this weird dream state

i felt like i looked like i was on heroin, but of course i didn't feel* like i was on heroin

"did u go out on kolopins or just take at home?"

take at home

it's good if you take a huge swig of PM cough medicine and drink a few beers

i spent all last winter super depressed

so i stayed in and would get wasted

i'd wake up, eat an ambien

wake up early evening and start drinking

then eat a kpin

nap

wake up around 10

and drink a six pack

smoke a pack of cigs

and eat another ambien

i'm surprised i'm still alive

i lost one of my jobs

so i was only working two nights a week

making like 200-300 bux a week

ha

my friend used to come over and ask me if i wanted to share a bag of dope with her. i'd have to say no bc i knew one bump of that shit and i'd be hooked

i was so depressed my plan was to try and sleep the winter away

but i was living on a friends couch and she was a full time student and worked, so i had the place to myself

i remember she went to mexico for a month and the gas got turned off. no heat. it was crazy. i was living like a junkie

"how did u get yerself out of it?"

spring came

i walked outside and as soon as i felt the warmth i felt better

and i got bored of always being fucked up

and my friends helped me out of it

Taking drugs to make music to take drugs to

My roommate played spacemen 3 from the living room today which was the perfect soundtrack for me while i lay in bed all day getting up once in a while to puke.